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    Saturday, January 22nd, 2005
    1:52 pm
    Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
    12:51 am
    RIP 2004
    first of all i had an amazing new years with some truely amazing girls whom i am so thankful to be friends with! and YEY MARY IS 20!

    but now I happened to find this old e-mail that dave myers sent to me. it was his livejournal entry about last new years eve and day and i felt the need to re-post it.


    ~After paying a visit to our good friend Misty's
    house, nora and I picked up meghan and headed out to
    Alden for a New Years that will never be forgotten.
    Upon arrival to meghan roberts house, we started our
    night by looking at old yearbooks, a
    timeless/universal activity. Once her parents left,
    nora meghan l and I decided a dance party would be an
    appropriate thing to get the ball rollin. A few games
    of SET were played in between the intense (like
    degrassi) dancing. Soon enough Trisha made her way
    over, and the party truly began. We never would of
    guessed who would be the next guest at our party. It
    was none other than a crazy wolf dog, who would not
    leave the property. We eventually managed to get it
    into the garage, and decided to take care of that
    situation at a later time. More dancing, set and
    smoking occured untill jeff and nick cole came over.
    We then set out to find the perfect new years eve
    party. Our goal was soon to be accomplished, but not
    without the help of a drunken boy we picked up along
    the way. He provided much entertainment for the ride
    and got a lot of laughs out of us. We finally reached
    the location of our new years eve festivites, a house
    full of children, parents and even grandparents. As we
    walked into this house, we thought, hmmm....these
    don't look like teenagers. However we were proved
    thouroughly wrong, for who was standing in the
    kitchen? None other then MICHELLE WILLIAMS. yes.
    michelle williams. a member of the senior class of
    2004 at kenmore west high school. I then knew that the
    night could only get better. After a little confusion,
    we made our way to the basement to find about 5 people
    standing around and playing beer pong. At this point
    the only thing I could think of was "wow, I really do
    not wanna ring in my new year in this basement, can we
    please go." We decided to stick it out though, and
    eventually discovered a refridgerator upstairs filled
    with beer and jello shots enough for anyones own good.
    We all then began to guzzle down as many jello shots
    as we could get our hands on, as well as a few
    brewskies in between. Meghan Roberts and Nora managed
    to squeeze a game of beer pong in while the rest of us
    stood around and laughed at the drunk kid (steve
    maybe?). It started getting close to 11:30 and we all
    came to a mutual agreement that we would not be in
    that house when midnight struck. So we headed out to
    the cars, but not without grabbing intensely large
    amounts of jello shots from the fridge for the ride
    home. We made it home safely, but with a close call
    due to meghan opening her door when a car was going
    by. We pulled into the driveway and were almost ready
    to countdown the last minutes of 2003, but chaos
    erupted. I tried to give nora a hug but knocked her
    earing out. We both got down on all fours and started
    to look for it. We then heard some comotion coming
    from the garage, only to see the wolf running through
    the yard once again. Jeff wanted to see it, but let it
    out instead. Meghan roberts then jumped on my back,
    while everyone else was in a mad dash around the yard
    in pursuit of the wild dogwolf. As the situations
    calmed down, nora and I concluded that there was only
    one thing left to do in the year 2003, have a
    cigarette. After enjoying our last puffs of cancer and
    singing a kick ass hark the harald angels sing,
    eveyrone headin inside for the ball drop. Nora and I
    had our last and first kiss of 03/04. Things now
    started to calm down. Set was played, nora passed out,
    a few rounds of goldrush, tv, degrassi, then bed. Our
    new years eve had concluded. But now the real fun
    starts. After eating breakfast and preparing for a day
    filled with adventure and nature, we were almost ready
    to begin. But first I needed to urinaate. I opened the
    toilet to find the leftovers of a good 15 minutes
    spent in the bathroom from meghans brother. I decided
    to just look past that and go about my business. I
    felt somthing was soon to go wrong. Upon flushing the
    toilet, chaos ensued. An overflow began, but quickly
    ended before things got messy. I decided to just walk
    out and pretend nothing happened. Its not my fault her
    brother clogged the toilet. We then went and payed
    meghans horses a visit. After playing business meeting
    in her dads office, we were attacked by all the
    horses. Meghan said they just wnated the carrotts, but
    we all knew they were crazy. After playing in the barn
    loft, I lead lead the way down. Our journey down the
    ladder came to a hault when one of the steps broke
    from under me...oops. We managed to work through it
    and headed to a lake on the property. Meghan L guided
    us while pretending to be someone from lord of the
    rings saying "follow me hobbits, this way!" After
    this, we headed to...the caves. We stopped at the res
    first, to stock up. Me and meghan L waited in the car,
    and of course meghan found a way to get messy. She
    thought it would be a good idea to rub the blue ink
    from a balloon all over her face. This provided many
    laughs, but needed to be taken care of. After makin a
    pit stop at Mcdonalds, nothing was gonna stop us on
    our journey to the caves. We hiked through intense
    woods, and finally stood in front of our goal for the
    day, the akron caves. We were a little sketchy about
    going in due to water that inhibited the ground, but
    found our way around the edges. We played inside the
    cave for a while, but then headed out for our long
    treck back to the car. Next time, Hemstreet Farm , aka
    home of my llams. We played with my llamas for a lil
    bit. I even let everyone take tungu over some jumps.
    This is quite an easy task, yet meghan L manged to
    fall flat on her face while jumping over a 5 inch log.
    We all laughed it off and headed back to alden. After
    freshening up from our intense day of nature and
    animals, we headed to the roadhouse grill only to be
    greeted by an extremly outgoing random girl who
    decided to tell us about her new years eve activited.
    She lurked around our table the entire night smiling
    at meghan, but we managed to get by that. We were too
    busy convincing everyone around us that I was from
    Virginia, and am going home tomorrow night, and today
    was my 19th birthday. We totally fooled everyone!
    After reminising of the days events and stealing two
    pales of peanuts, we said our goodbyes, nora meghan
    and I headed back to Kenmore. There you have it
    kiddies, the story of a years end and beginning well
    spent with great people doing crazy things.


    He did forget about the "playmate of the apes" porn we watched it was wicked funny. oh and my whole family is still convinced he pluged out toilet, yet he blames it on my brother lol
    Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
    12:39 pm
    hahaha i talked to mary today, for the first time since she left for Spain. and i just htought this was really funny

    gaLiLeocowgirL (1:04:56 PM): they have these awesome drinks called jamaicans here and it is beer which is like spanish beer so it is mega strong, beer, lemon juice, rum, and sugar all mixed together in like the giant fishbowl and u get a bunch of straws, and then everyone smokes hash and dances to bob dylan.


    oh man. i want to go to college in spain.
    Saturday, August 21st, 2004
    11:21 am
    gaLiLeo cowgirL: "instead of saying goodbye let them know you realize that life goes fast, it's hard to make the good things last, but we know that the sun does not go down, it's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round"
    10:45 am
    hello keuka
    I am leaving for college in 30 mins. I just wented to update to tell everyone that i will not get my P.O. Box untill monday because the post office is not open untill then...............

    and also I HAVE A NEW CELL #. it is area code (312) 244-4512. so CALL ME!

    I love everyone good bye and good luick to everyone in college, i'll be seein ya around.
    12:54 am

    So this had to be one of the best weeks of my life. Mary, Katie and I had such a great time :) I don't think i slept really in about a week or 2. and i am leaving in 10 hours and i am not packed really. it sucks but why waist your last days packing ya know... To see and read about the fun fun times of this week go to [info]blue_karma , Mary has the best pictures ever. Now that i had such a great summer i am kinda sad to leave. yesterday at the show i was huging care goodbye and i cried........... its true. I am just going to miss everyone very much. when i find out my address i will post it, so everyone can send me mail!!!!!!!!!!!!! i <3 mail. I wonder if people will forget about me...... I hope not.

    I hope everyone has an awesome experience in college or whatever they plan to do, and mary, i hope you have a blast in Spain. my mom said it is going to cost a lot to mail books to spain all the time, but i think its worth it, anyways i have a Debit card lol.

    Bye everyone. make sure you e-mail me and everyhting.

    Billie7tre@yahoo.com

    im: Megmoosue

     

    Keep in touch.

     

    so a grasshopper walks into a bar, and the bartender is like "hey we have a drink named after you" and the grasshopper goes "oh, youhave a drink named Joe?"

    Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
    3:25 am
    Thank you
    I love my friends so much. thank you to everyone that came to my bon fire.
    Care you are the cutest thing in the world, i can't believe you came! you trickster you. Thank you Mary for the book and the quote, and thanks for being you. Thank you everyone. you guys really are making this last week here amazing. Warped tour tomorrow, sweet. I hope its a good one. and then Thursday with care and the show. amazingness, it will be fun. Ang we will go running, and get in shape hahah in one day.... oh man..
    Saturday, August 14th, 2004
    10:55 pm
    I think that this last week here is going to be a good one. It started off nicely with a friday the 13th party at my place. well party = like 10 people hanging out playin pool driking beer and singing songs while eric plays guitar. i think that is the best kind of party. Whats better than singing Counting crows, Billy Joel, Sublime, Avril, and Jewel? It was such a good time with a lot of good people. Whats not a good time is having to get up at 8am to let out the horses when you went to sleep at 6am. but what is good is people making you toast. Then by noon we were gambling with dice. I love to gamble, i have a problem. I only lost like $5 today tho, melissa cleaned house.

    so here is my agenda for the week.

    Sunday- the fair all day
    monday- roadhouse with brian
    tuesday- olivegarden with tom and BON FIRE AT MY PLACE!(everyone come)
    wed.-warped tour(?) maybe...
    thursday- CARE TIME! and then a show
    friday-hang out with the fam. and pack
    saturday - GOOD BYE ALDEN. HELLO KEUKA VOLLEYBALL.

    call me if you want to get together or something.
    Thursday, August 12th, 2004
    10:58 pm
    8 days
    i have been thinking a lot, and i guess i am starting to get a little sad about leaving.don't get me wrong i am excited, i know i will meet a lot of new people and have a lot of fun, but i am just going to miss people so much. People i have spent pretty much my whole live with thus far, who are 5 min. away from my house, who are always there are not going to be there anymore. shit. There are just so many people that i never really got to say bye to or just got a chance to really hang out with. but its not that i didn't try, so whatever i guess. You know what I am nervous about? My roommate is not playing a sport so she doens't come till aug. 27th, so that means I have to spend 6 days sleeping alone in my room........ I don't like being all along. It scares me. What if i don't make any frineds and then I am stuck sleeping all by my self missing my sister with all my heart. oh how I'll miss Emma.

    Today I took Emma to Darien Lake and we met Kali and her sister and her 2 friends there. it was a good time. I literally forced emma to go on the boomarang, she bit my arm so hard, i still have the marks. she did not want to go, but i made her go on the viper and it is now her favorite ride. well she finally calmed down right b4 we got on the ride, and we sat down and got locked down and she started crying. i felt so bad, she was so scared, so we held hands and she ended up kinda likeing the ride, so i think i did good. she even told me to remind her to go on the boomarang next time we go.
    Monday, August 9th, 2004
    11:18 am

    EVENT: BONFIRE

    PLACE: MY HOUSE

    WHEN: TUESDAY AUG. 17th

    REASON: End of summer goodbye to frineds b4 everyone leaves for college party.

    TIME: um.. when it gets dark? or earlier, i dunno. whenever you show up.

    TILL: whenever you leave.

     

    I would love it for everyone to be there, just show up. becuase i don't think i have time ot hang out with everyone individually, so come and hang out in a group!.

    Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
    10:28 pm
    some tiems life makes me really mad. I jsut want to Scream really loud and have the power to make everyhitng ok. grr. fuck i don't like when shitty things happen.
    Monday, August 2nd, 2004
    10:55 pm
    I haven't updated in awhile. so i have done a lot in these past few days/week or so. Johanna and I took a road trip to Pittsburgh. chilled in "Time Square" (aka Station Square lol) had a lot of starbucks, drank with some 30 year olds and my brother, Went to the Water front, Shawn's work, and Art show at AIP, walk a few miles up and down huge hills, got hit on by every car that drove by, Dawsons creek everyday (I have season 1 on DVD!) watched the democratic convension with 30 year old Sean, played with dogs, went ot see the Village, ate at Fat Heads and PF Chings (YUMMY!) had verry little sleep, drove home with drunk JO and on;y able to see out of one eye in the pouring rain at 7am. ah good times.

    so its crunch time. I still have a lot of stuff to do. I leave in 18 days! crazy. sad to say that my 18 days is limited to like maybe 6 full hang out days with friends. so I obviously won't be able to hang out with everyone i wanted to but most of that isn't due to me, becuase i definetly attempted for the past month but some people just don't want to i guess. oh well, i will maybe see you like once or twice in the next 5 years. it makes me really sad but if the other people does not care then maybe i shouldn't either.
    Monday, July 26th, 2004
    1:53 am
    did anyone watch that show "surfer girls" on MTV?? well you know that one girl who was sick and she had some sort of staf infection from geting a cut in the ocean. and she had this lump and she had to go to the Dr. and they had to cut it out and she was crying becuase they had to frigin cut it out of her. and then they pulled it out and it was the grossest thing i ever saw.

    well i went surfing and got cut and there is a lump on my side, what if it is that? I am so scared. i go to the Dr. on wed. omg i am so nervous, i don't want it to be that. eeeewwwwwwwwww
    Sunday, July 25th, 2004
    3:06 pm
    Wed i am going with Johanna to Pittsburgh, it shoudl be fun. we were going to go and see Ill At Ease play there but there show got moved so now we can't see them, but we are still going to visit my brother. My brother got picked to be a judge at an art show at the Art Institute Tuursday so we get to go to the art show and see all the amazing work! I am so excited. Jo and I always know how to have a good time so i am sure it will be wonderful.

    I have under 4 weeks untill i leave for college and i will be gone for 3 days in Pittsburgh so that doesn't leave a lot of time to hang out with frineds, and there are so many frineds i want to see before i go........... i don't wnat to leave with out seeing everyone.



    oh and is it normal that when you get a long cut on your side from surfing that a week later there is a huge lump under your skin?? is that supposted to happen becuase i honestly don't know but it feels werid. should i be scared?
    Saturday, July 17th, 2004
    11:54 pm
    holy best week of my life, ever, hands down, nothing even compaired. if i took the time to write about EVERYHTING then it would be the longest lj ever so i will jsut list things. that were amazing and fun.

    The Beach
    The Waves
    The sun
    The sun rises
    The sun sets
    The Sand
    The company (I <3 u Jo!)
    DQ
    The tan i now have
    Surfer boys
    Our house we had
    Eric and his guitar
    -Piano Man
    -Avril
    weird boys that burn themselves........ very odd.
    The cops that come to yell at us
    boogie boards
    never wearing shoes or sandles unless you were in a resturant or store.
    hour after hour sitting at the beach
    Margarita day
    Orange Cream drink thingy day
    bon fires on the beach
    the glowing waves at night

    I could go on and on all day becuase it was so amazing but it will end it with the most amazing thing i experienced............

    SURFING, It was amazing, just so awesome. It is so hard to do and it tires you out so much but when you do catch a wave right and ride it in it is the best feeling in the world. It was 100 times better than snowboarding, just amazing. even tho i got pretty beat up and hurt, it was the more incredable thing ever. I wish i had an ocean in my back yard where i could surf all day long. If i ever figgure out how to post pictures i will post one of my surfing cut, even tho there are many one is really bad hahahah it was amazing. i love it.
    Friday, July 9th, 2004
    12:10 am
    So today I was thinking about my life........ and I think that so far i have lived it pretty successfully. I think for the most part i made good decisions and i see myself on the right track. and its not like i am "on the right track" but not having fun, becuase i am having tons of fun right now. My friends are awesome and we always have a good time. I don't have to go out and get drunk every night or smoke pot to have fun, we just do with out all that. well not completely but what i am saying is i can have fun with them if i am drinking or not, i don't jsut have to drink to have fun, which i think a lot of people are becoming like that. Just thinking about everyhitng i do and all that i worked for, i am content. I am going to a good college with an idea of what i want to do, i am playing volleyball and maybe softball in college, which i always wanted to do, I got a scholarship to go there, I have great frineds now, I am doing better at work and am geting paid more, I love my little sister, I am cool with my parents, and i have just been having fun. I think i have finnaly found frineds who are REAL friends. I mean my frineds before were cool, but i don't think they were really that real to me. now i have friends that care, and call me and i hang out wiht all the time, and i think it is better now. I noticed that i don't need some people, and i can function just fine without them, becuase sometimes a person has just always been there you think that you will always need them to be there, but that is false, becuase people change, some for the better some for the worse, but people change and they don't always change with you or the same direction. and i am just happy that i see myself changing for the good. Its not like you have to cut those people out of your life for good, but maybe you jsut aren't ment to be good frineds with them. I think it is stupid and completly wrong to just be like "we are different, now we cna be frineds or talk" that is not cool, unless there is a good reason, but just becuase you change doens't mean you can't tlak at all.

    I don't even know if i covered everyhitng i wanted to becuase thoughts jsut fly through my head and i catch a few but tis jsut all over the place, so i hope that made sense.

    I leave for vacation tomorrow. I will try to bring back some things for some close frineds. (Care I am hoping to catch a rainbow in a jar and bring it back for you!) I can't wait to have no worries, and sit on the beach with JoJo and get tan! (meghan, tan??) I like life, I like summer, I like frineds, and i like family. call my phone while i am gone and leave cute messages! 430-1743.

    Today was larissa's and Jeffy b's birthdays. I went over to larissa's and had a good time, her family is so cute, and then me and jeff went to the casino and gambled all our money away, seriously we did. but it was super fun and i cna't wait to do it again! :)
    Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
    11:55 pm
    I just fucking miss people.
    Sunday, June 27th, 2004
    4:06 pm
    I think it is very necessary to update today. Yesterday was graduation. It was such a wonderful time becuase that means it is OVER. but it was really boring, i entertained myself by blowing my tassel for 2 hours. and i wore flip flops becuase i am a bad ass. i was really excited for my party and what not.

    So then my party came along. holy mother f*in bounce house. Bigest thing i have ever seen. we fit like 15 adults in there and still had more room. it was so amazing and fun. serously I chose to stay at my house and play in that over going to get drunk someplace. Bounce houses like this beat beer any day. my brothers and their friends, and my frineds all jsut stayed in there the whole time. then me, shawn, my brother shawn, and his friend crashed in there for the night. It was so awesome.

    I learned a lot about yesterday. I learned that there are 2 types of frineds, the one type who are amazing and will go out of their way jsut to meake an apperance at you party jsut becuase they know it means a lot to me and the other kind who say they will come but feel that geting drunk is much better then stoping by for even 5 mins. I was really hurt yesterday thinging about all the people i asked to cme who said they would stop by but who didn't. good thing i have a few amazing frineds who balance out that hurtingness with love.

    A special thanks to Michelle, johanna, larissa, care, brian, paul, steve, mark, and shawn for being those amazing frineds.

    well becuase i have friends that desided not to show up at my party, i got a $20 gift care to starbucks. so maybe its better they didn't come, i can got to star bucks a few more times for free now.

    Basically I am done with going out of my way for people unless they are on my special thanks list above. well i suppose there are a few exceptions, but casically some people are jsut being really shitty, and i am not going to deal with it anymore. fuck off.
    Friday, June 25th, 2004
    1:45 am
    today i go to ang's house and i call my mom to let her know where i am, and shes like, well you have to be home by 1am, and i was like what? and she was like yea you can't break curfew..... WTF?!!? thats fucking news to me??? since when do i have a fucking curfew. I didn't last night when i got home at 3am. and i was at a random boys house that i never met in kenmore. but tonight when i am fucking down the motherfucking street i have a fucking curfew? she is on fucking crack. i can't even deal. so then i call her back and wa slike yea i'm going to sleep over at ang's house. and she says no. WTFFFFFFF? i can sleep over at Jo's house on a school night when there are a bunch of kids she doens't know drinking, but i cna't sleep over at ang's house during the summer?????/ I honestly don't get her adn i am fucking pissed off. I think she realized she only has like a month left to be able to tell me what to do so she tries to put the smack down. fuck that. fuck this. what 18 year old has a 1am curfew during the summer, and isn't allowed to sleep at frineds houses. i came home tonight jsut so i didn't have to argue. but if it fucking happens again i don't care i am just doing waht i want. fuck.

    ang - you are so cute, hahaa you house and fam is so much fun. i will be there tomorrow. we will have tons of fun. :) thanks. <3
    Thursday, June 24th, 2004
    7:44 pm
    so this is the 3rd time i am trying to update, but livejournal and my computer are in a fight. wed. was a lot of fun. ill at ease played wonderful. the other bands from out of town were really good. I saw sara, who i haven't seen in like a year. and i met a ton of new people. the show was such a good time. then i went to kenmore with jo to meet this random boy, it turns out he was cares ex boyfriend...... haha so randommmm such a small world. then jo and i went to care's house and had a good chat.

    thank you to brian, paul, steve, and mark for being so wonderful. <3

    thank you to care p. (peepeepants?) frandina for giving jo and i a heads up, and for leting us come over so late.<33333

    my grad party is this sat. i expect to see U there (everyone who is reading this!) everyone is invited. come around 6ish.
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